Chronicles of Cook VI
As part of Mindful Monday today on the blog I am talking about: Living with anxiety and fear.
I am constantly bogged down with the what-ifs in life. Not the what if I did this instead of this scenario, but more of a what-if this fails scenario. I have had anxiety for quite a while (well as long as I can remember) and just recently started talking about it with a friend and understanding it. The most important thing, when I get anxious, is to sit with the anxiousness and ask myself, why? Why do I feel this way - and then take it from there.
As I write this right now, my anxiety level is pretty high, the majority of the time I notice it and move on without analyzing it because a state of anxiety has been here for so long that it's become normal to me. More often than not I am anxious because of fear and I avoid fear and sadness which leads to anxiety. It's a vicious circle of life - I know. I am anxious today because I have set certain expectations for myself, for this blog, for my job, and for my life. Instead of saying to myself - hey, this isn't life or death; The e-mails can be answered tomorrow or it's ok to skip out on blogging for a day. Instead, I tell myself that I have not met my goals I set out for myself and that leads to fear (of being unsuccessful- but who is to define that) and self-shame for not accomplishing what I set out for myself.
What I've learned isn't that I'm afraid of putting myself out there. I'm afraid of losing or not being good enough when in reality life isn't about that. It's about sharing your emotions (in the moment) putting yourself out there and not being afraid of failure. Creating amazing connections,meeting likeminded people and working together. If you look back on most successful people they have failed time and time again and have gotten right back up to succeed. We have tricked ourselves - it's not about what will happen, it's about what's in the present. Not living in the past, nor fear of the future but being thankful for what you have accomplished today.
This weekend was a great one for me I got in touch with a few more people to collaborate with that share the same vision and passion about fashion, styling and this amazing journey. I it never would have happened if I didn't put myself out there.
Today's challenge - do something that scares you and be ok with your decision(s) - whether it turns out great or not so great.
My decision today is to share all the glorious bloopers that I have taken while blogging and some fun pinspiration because deep down that is who I really am. I am silly, fun, sometimes a little too hard on myself and loving.
Happy Monday Lovelies!